A Little Deflated

Just a couple of little setbacks today, nothing so big I can't cope, nothing so important that it will put me off my goal, just enough to make me feel bllllaaaaarrrgggghhhh.

I've mentioned before that self confidence isn't my strong point, and this is a major factor in my drive to achieve this twenty plus year dream, I want to prove to myself  that I can do this, that I can do something significant.  Foolishly I thought everybody would think this was the greatest idea I've ever had, WRONG, but I'm not doing this for anybody else, I'm doing this for me, and for the people I help along the way.

I want to do, what I want,
I want to live my life,
I want to live my dream....
I don't want to hurt people, I don't want to offend them, but I also don't want to be an old woman looking back on her life and resenting not following her heart.  

I think this is the reason I've tried so hard to fuel my own daughters dreams... I hope I never make them feel that something is too big to try, I hope they know that when they share a dream with me, that I will do everything in MY power to help them achieve it. 


And to top it all off, I got told that my first fundraising idea, was a "No go"I can't hold it where I planned, as the event is a Community event,... oh well onwards and upwards... it's no biggie.  

“We cannot change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand.” 
― Randy Pausch, The Last Lecture

Gripe over.... tomorrows a new one...

Asanti
Jacq
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